there's this guy i've been hanging out with through my school job who is funny/interesting/nice/flirty. he seems to think i'm so great and he wants to hang out all the time. so i'm like, yay.
but then last night at this party he was like, "oh your friend jonny works at the pete's where i get my coffee. there is a hot girl who works there, and i want to ask him about her." and he's made a few other comments about girls around me, and he seems to be telling me, "let's be friends, awesome megan."
i'm feeling really depressed today. i feel deflated and unmotivated and lame. additionally, i'm feeling lame for feeling so lame. i would like to think i am premenstrual but i am not.
and it's not just the dude, who is probably not so great anyway. it is the confirmation of my self-diagnosed "cool girl" syndrome, which is the female version of the "nice guy" syndrome. fucking sucks and i hate it.
um, but i'm sure i'll feel better later.
love from depresso-land,
megan
